Me VS TSA

I'm back...yeah.Not without smth to tell,as usual:).But it's not going to be anything funny actually.Firstly i wanto to congratulate Anna and say one more time i'm so happy she's found
happiness at last after that week of hell.Now back to me.

Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know,seem to care what your heart is for...
But i don't know him anymore(unfortunately i do,so this bit is here just to rhyme...)
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I don't care,i have no luck,i don't miss it all that much,
There're just so many things that i can't touch...I'm torn(and so on and so forth)

Ok,done with this song wich stuck to me several days before and i can't get it out of my head!The thing is that...I can't get the TSA(ask me later) out of my head as well.The problem is not that i think about him or smth...it's something worse!You would ask me:what can be worse than that??But i can tell you:it's when you see a nice guy and he looks at you and when he's about to approach you suddenly turn around and go away!That's what worse!I just can't,just can't get aquainted with anyone else!And i don't know why,seriously...it's all so stupid...Really,i can't even imagine anyone else instead of TSA,but still i can't say i'm in love or smth...!!!And i don't know why it's so,i really don't.Wether it has smth to do with my brain and i'll have to remove it(please,no jokes like "why,you have nothing to remove!"),or...well,i know no other variant,just the brain thing.So this is my problem.Of course it's not my problem no1 cause i've got other things to care about,but today i did that stupid thing with turning around and going away,that's why i decided to write this...
And this song quotes are...well,i could't ignore them,cause they nearly describe this situation.TSA really doesn't know what his heart is for,and doesn't seem to care that much.And me...well,i think i don't care,plus i do have no luck and do i miss it...?This is probably the only thing not right in that quote.And what about the things i can't touch...it's about this fuckingly big fucking world i'm talking about...!!!Oh,forgot to comment the first line:i tell myself"no,nonsence,you couldn't have adored!".Really,it just makes no sence!But then i'm like"or could i ...?Why not...?".And i'm more confused than torn,cause that's too serious.
Er,well,gotta end all this big fat thing cause you'll be tired reading my nonsence.If you have any questions(and you may have,cause i created this TSA nick on the spot while writin it)contact me:7355300,Jul.(i do not accept calls from Ilya on this particular topic,sorry)