International women's day

What an irony! Today's International women's day and I have high temperature and a head-ache...I hope it's not flu...
Happy IWD...!

Something positive today:

Easy comes...easy goes!The year i mean

Some people(including me)think we shouldn't ever look back,we should moove forward.That's why i don't want to overlook this year wich is leaving us once more:i lived it,that's enough.I have no right to say it was bad for me,cause for some i love it was much more difficult,so i would say it was just...er,tiring.There were moments i want to repeat,there were some i'd like to forget and never remember again.All i can say that life is beautiful,life is great,whatever it gives us and whatever it takes away.It's just...you know...normal.Something comes,something goes...but the best things in our life stay forever,at least in our hearts,thats why i can definitely say i love it.I said we shouldn't look back but here's just a glance.Here things that stay.
Friends stay.I met lots of interesting people and looked deeper into my old friends and saw something new,something different,something great.There were lots of tests,but i believe it was for the best:we always have them to prove mostly to ourselves that there's no other thing like friendship,and that when your friend has troubles,or when we both have troubles other things don't seem to matter.
Dreams stay.I can't say i'm very dreamy,but i have lots of dreams.Little of them may come true in 2007,but hope for some.But anyway they will stay and wait till their turn to come true.I believe in the old proverb 'everything is good in its season'.
Family stays.Sometimes i think i could kill my parents,but when i understand how much i am addicted,how much i love them...
Inner world stays.It's not influenced by the troubles from the outside,it always stays the same:only for you.
Your world stays.Your world is your friends,your family and your dreams.
That is all about looking back.I'd like to look into the future.The next year must be terrific,i feel it.But anyway i hope it won't disappoint me.At least i know i'll be happy anyway having all those things that stay.Time for NY resolutions:):
1.I'll become more tolerant.
2.I'll do everything i possibly can to help.
3.I won't quarrel about stupid things.
4.I will show those i love that i love them more and more often.
5.I'll pay more attention to the household stuff.
6.I'll stop thinking about the future so much.
7.I'll play more with my dog and cat.
8.I'll smile and cry whenever i want.
9.I will finally understand that small worries can't affect happiness in general.
10.I'll overcome all the difficulties life gives me(with only little help;)
Thats all i can think of right now,probably later i'll remember smth else.Thanks for attention:)and Happy New Year to everybody!Love,Juljul:*

Oh yes,man is a fool...blah-blah-blah

"Sometimes I see
How the brave new world arrives
And I see how it thrives
In the ashes of our lives
Oh yes, man is a fool
And he thinks he'll be okay
Dragging on feet of clay
Never knowing he's astray
Keeps on going anyway"

Ok,that was just an introduction:)When juljul was merrily looking through work premit visas or vacancies in Ireland i came over a TSA term...so here what it really means: Technical Support Analyst...how dull,my interpretation's much more lively!

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Today was much of a day...i won't even comment on it,cause i don't want going through it once more.Just a brief overview:many of us were histerical/predhisterical today and when i was going home by metro i thought-what the fuck?!-oh my God,why?Why me,why so?Why so difficult,so complicated,so...cloudy at the horizont?I can't understand why i can't live today and be happy?Why do i have to look in future every minute?And realize every minute how complicated,difficult and cloudy it is?!I know i should live today,i know it...but i can't.Final.I just can't.Pity me...Dum spiro,spero, as our latin teacher would say...

Everything

Yesterday night i felt gloomy cause i had lots of things to do and i realised i don't have enought time fot everything(not that it was the first time i realised it) and i felt really..well,bad.Cause i thought of life.Everybody(well,not everybody,but at least those who's blogs i read;) wrote it is great,great for different reasons.And yeaterday night i thought about it and some very unpleasant thoughts and feelings were messing in my mind.Like what if my dreams won't come true?Like what if it all will turn out in a different way?Not in the way i expect it to turn out?What then?I don't want to embody them in my chldren as most of people do.I don't want that.I want to have it for myself.I want to have them,my dreams,for myself,and moreover:i want to have them come true.And you know,after all this things i thought about i felt better.It was a pity it was about 1a.m.,so too late to call anybodyand whine,and i couldn't tell this all to my mom,though she asked why i was so furstrated.I love her and i know she wans to help,but i'm just not ready.Not now.So anyway,i felt better,cause i thought:why do i think in such a way?Why the hell do i think they wonnt ever come true?Why do i think my life will be unworthy?I can't,i don't have any right to think in such a way!It really is great,and,believe me,it's up to all of us to make it the way we want,the way we would like it to happen!So if anybody i know starts to think in as a stupid way as i did just read this post once more.It's all nonsence in a way,but it's true.It's great,it's beautiful,it's all up to us.Life;)...